Dear Friends,
Tonight I want to discuss about the dilemma about career development versus personal desire/preference. I am quite sure that almost everyone has to experience this dilemma but in each individually tailored experience. I have experienced this quite a lot throughout my college years as well. But today, I want to discuss the current dilemma that I am facing. Well, technically it would not be a dilemma, but it is something I have to admit to myself and break out of my comfort zone, aka my tiny little protected shell.
I've always wanted to believe to myself that I am an "explorer". I took a job in a foreign country, went to college is another foreign country. And has the purpose, to travel and explore.
But today, I am facing the opportunity to go somewhere for the current project that I am currently working on.. I should be excited, I should say yes without hesitation and I should jump with joy with this opportunity. Living somewhere else for a month, getting paid and explore while getting work done.
But here I am, confused as hell.. I will for the first time actually travel alone. I am hesitating to take that opportunity. I am torn between comfort and independence. Security and Risks (as associated with exploring into the new world/place). I know I did it before, but I feel like the other time, I have people to support me, and with their help, I was okay...
This reminds me of when I was still in school. There, they are offering this scholarship, the "Boren Scholarship". This scholarship wants to give you the opportunity to get to know more about yourself, through traveling across the world. One condition, apart from the fact that you have to be U.S. citizen, was that you have to travel alone. Well.. that scared the shit out of me. I guess this is no difference. This still scare the shit out of me.
I'll be entirely... alone. It'll be lonely. But I am going to take the opportunity.
I'll find out more about it tomorrow. And for the first time. I'll be traveling to a foreign land by myself. This should be easier, considering that I've been there before although with someone else and I speak the language too.
Sigh, why am I intimidated?
But here's my inspiration from PostSecret:
So.. Let's go on an adventure! :)
Tonight I want to discuss about the dilemma about career development versus personal desire/preference. I am quite sure that almost everyone has to experience this dilemma but in each individually tailored experience. I have experienced this quite a lot throughout my college years as well. But today, I want to discuss the current dilemma that I am facing. Well, technically it would not be a dilemma, but it is something I have to admit to myself and break out of my comfort zone, aka my tiny little protected shell.
I've always wanted to believe to myself that I am an "explorer". I took a job in a foreign country, went to college is another foreign country. And has the purpose, to travel and explore.
But today, I am facing the opportunity to go somewhere for the current project that I am currently working on.. I should be excited, I should say yes without hesitation and I should jump with joy with this opportunity. Living somewhere else for a month, getting paid and explore while getting work done.
But here I am, confused as hell.. I will for the first time actually travel alone. I am hesitating to take that opportunity. I am torn between comfort and independence. Security and Risks (as associated with exploring into the new world/place). I know I did it before, but I feel like the other time, I have people to support me, and with their help, I was okay...
This reminds me of when I was still in school. There, they are offering this scholarship, the "Boren Scholarship". This scholarship wants to give you the opportunity to get to know more about yourself, through traveling across the world. One condition, apart from the fact that you have to be U.S. citizen, was that you have to travel alone. Well.. that scared the shit out of me. I guess this is no difference. This still scare the shit out of me.
I'll be entirely... alone. It'll be lonely. But I am going to take the opportunity.
I'll find out more about it tomorrow. And for the first time. I'll be traveling to a foreign land by myself. This should be easier, considering that I've been there before although with someone else and I speak the language too.
Sigh, why am I intimidated?
But here's my inspiration from PostSecret:
So.. Let's go on an adventure! :)
